2. Health
Mentally exhausted, psychologically damage and physically full of ailments.
Trigeminal Neuralgia.
I have been suffering from this incurable, horrible disease for more than 10 years. It comes and goes.
Previously "episodes of attack" last for a few weeks up to 3-4 months. Then there were periods of remission of a few months to 1-2 years.
The latest "attack" started in June 2019 up till now, more than a year.
Non sufferers would have no idea of the pain.
At times pain occurs when I brush teeth, wash face, touch face, shave and even drink water. The worst is eating. I have to chew on one side to avoid pain. At times even that doesn't help.
Trigeminal Neuralgia.
I have been suffering from this incurable, horrible disease for more than 10 years. It comes and goes.
Previously "episodes of attack" last for a few weeks up to 3-4 months. Then there were periods of remission of a few months to 1-2 years.
The latest "attack" started in June 2019 up till now, more than a year.
Non sufferers would have no idea of the pain.
At times pain occurs when I brush teeth, wash face, touch face, shave and even drink water. The worst is eating. I have to chew on one side to avoid pain. At times even that doesn't help.
This is a progressive disease, meaning that it will get worst with age.
I have eczema.
I also have Rotator Cuff Injury on both shoulders. On and off there's pain.
My worst fear is Stroke.
Some years back I had 4 TIAs, Transient Ischemic Attacks, where I couldn't move my left arm and leg.
On and off, I have been getting "dizzy spells" when I have to stop, stand still, closed my eyes and get a sense of balance and direction. Also been having numbness in both hands almost every day for the last few months.
What happens when I get a stroke or other delibitating illness?
I have eczema.
I also have Rotator Cuff Injury on both shoulders. On and off there's pain.
My worst fear is Stroke.
Some years back I had 4 TIAs, Transient Ischemic Attacks, where I couldn't move my left arm and leg.
On and off, I have been getting "dizzy spells" when I have to stop, stand still, closed my eyes and get a sense of balance and direction. Also been having numbness in both hands almost every day for the last few months.
What happens when I get a stroke or other delibitating illness?
The life that I would have.
The burden this would caused.
God knows what else is wrong with my body.
Better to go now.
The burden this would caused.
God knows what else is wrong with my body.
Better to go now.
A simple cremation.
No monks.
No rituals.
Ashes scattered into the river, sea or up on a hill.